Bitter Sweet Love

I am drowning deep down here
Yet my voice, no one can hear
I am burning and blazing hot still
Yet my head, still hard like a steel
I am missing someone so dear
Who is far away while am still here
My heart is burning with flame
And my head is heavy with blame
Because, betrayal have befall me,
I have lost my fate and wish it's not me 
Yet! I pray, bitter like this, it should never be
But rather be sweet like honey from a bee
It is very hard to keep this memory
A reason why I always have to worry
What kind of love could this be?
If not The Bitter Sweet Love?